Thursday, July 12, 2007

Hatred and Despise...

Friendship? What are friends for I wonder? I do have lots of friends with all kinds of background, no doubt. I love makieng make new friends, as meeting more people and building friendship network are quite important to me.

That bring me to this topic, do you ever or really really hate and despise a friend of yours? I do. Felt so ashamed and embarrassed. I hate myself for doing that. I not sure how to explain. I'm kinda of guy who alway see people from a positive perpestive no matter how other people talk bad about he or she. Gaining their trust and respect is alway a good start to a new friendship. I have a friend who rant about her friend this and that and I always advised her that maybe her friend had a bad day or not in the good mood, and that's why she is acting like that. I'm person who is alway easily let people gain my trust but once the trust has broken, I will complete shut them out from my life.

I know W and T thru a friend. Both of them are quite fun to be with only sometimes they over do it with their lame jokes and teasing. But what the heck, I still can live with that. That's what are friends for, able to see their strength and accept their weakness. But lately, I felt there is a gap between me and them. Not sure why. Maybe their fucking action. Maybe their attitude towards other of my friends or the feint smile they wear on their blardy face. So annoying and fake. Heard many bad things about them but I still tried to mingle around but the unwanted feeling of despise and hatred kept growing. Just hate them!!! Hei, I'm no blardy saint, just ordinary kkjm trying to make new friends and enjoy meeting people. Losing one or two of this kind of friends won't be my loss but theirs. I'm still keeping my fingers cross, that we will still remained as friends......


8 comments:

messy daisy said...

i actually agree that KKJM is someone who sees a friend from the positive side. Sometimes this poor fella caught me at the wrong time (when i was in bad mood in office) and i always throw tantrum at him..But he always seems to understand. And he always say positive things abt other friends despite the way they treat him. I respect him for this, but dude, really there's always limit of patience in every human. THose friends of yours, are totally not worth for u to think positive of. cheers!

k u k u j i o a m a n said...

Lol!!! Tenkiu tenkiu, so you owe me breakfast, brunch, lunch, dinner and supper!! Me nearly burst to tears when you marah me *sob sob* Hehehehe... what to do? Once become friends, forever friends!!!!

belle said...

friend...alot
but sincere wan..
5 fingers can count..
but treat everyone sincerely..
you'l feel better,coz its not you who is being hypocrit.its others..you wont have regret

k u k u j i o a m a n said...

belle, totally agree wif you.. I just cannot stand friends that are not sincere!!!

marsha said...

I just think that we cannot control what others choose to do. Just let them be and you be yourself. as long as you treat them right, treat your friends right and feels good about yourself, don't bother lah. hatred is a waste of time and energy. :-)

k u k u j i o a m a n said...

Marsha, you are totally right!!! But the hatred just surface out everytime when they does this stupid stuff. But hey, they just a good friend indeed. :)

Chin said...

Nothing is worse than betrayal from fren. When u willing to take him/her in, backstab-ing n gossip-ing hurt the most. But u gotta acknowledge da fact that there's no way to please each n everyone is this world.....

Pingu

k u k u j i o a m a n said...

Lol... I thought you say must use heart to treat your friends geh?? Hehehehe...