Hatred and Despise...

Friendship? What are friends for I wonder? I do have lots of friends with all kinds of background, no doubt. I love makieng make new friends, as meeting more people and building friendship network are quite important to me.

That bring me to this topic, do you ever or really really hate and despise a friend of yours? I do. Felt so ashamed and embarrassed. I hate myself for doing that. I not sure how to explain. I'm kinda of guy who alway see people from a positive perpestive no matter how other people talk bad about he or she. Gaining their trust and respect is alway a good start to a new friendship. I have a friend who rant about her friend this and that and I always advised her that maybe her friend had a bad day or not in the good mood, and that's why she is acting like that. I'm person who is alway easily let people gain my trust but once the trust has broken, I will complete shut them out from my life.

I know W and T thru a friend. Both of them are quite fun to be with only sometimes they over do it with their lame jokes and teasing. But what the heck, I still can live with that. That's what are friends for, able to see their strength and accept their weakness. But lately, I felt there is a gap between me and them. Not sure why. Maybe their fucking action. Maybe their attitude towards other of my friends or the feint smile they wear on their blardy face. So annoying and fake. Heard many bad things about them but I still tried to mingle around but the unwanted feeling of despise and hatred kept growing. Just hate them!!! Hei, I'm no blardy saint, just ordinary kkjm trying to make new friends and enjoy meeting people. Losing one or two of this kind of friends won't be my loss but theirs. I'm still keeping my fingers cross, that we will still remained as friends......